THE 100 // SEASON 3 "WANHEDA: PART TWO" RECAP

Simply Nicollette's recap posts for The 100 will contain spoilers.



Wow - What an episode!
Who's ready to talk about everything that happened last night? Maddi and I are excited to be sharing our thoughts about each episode throughout this entire season with you. You can read our recap of "Wanheda: Part One" here. Now - let's talk about the second episode!



Wanheda: Part Two Synopsis:

"Bellamy and Kane risk life and limb to rescue Clarke. In an attempt to avoid worrying about her daughter, Abby focuses on whether to open Mount Weather as a medical facility. Meanwhile, Murphy plots to betray his former Chancellor."




Maddi - As we know Clarke is being hunted by everyone even her own people who are trying to save her, but she's been captured and now they must get her back, to save her life and stop a war from beginning.


M - Bellamy, Monty, Kane, and Indra searching for Clarke are still trapped in the Jeep. The sun has risen showing that they've been there for awhile. They plan to make a run for it as Bellamy gets out of the Jeep to cover the others, when someone grabs him and he's threatened with a knife to his throat as he lets out a sassy "they're here", letting the others know as they're forced out of the Jeep.

The second that person holding the knife spoke I knew that these people weren't Grounders.. leaving us with the question of who are they?
It turns out it was their own people, more survivors from the Ark after one of them recognizes Monty.. his own mother. Leaving us all shocked. I never expected that.

Kristy - I was shocked to learn that Monty's mother was alive on the ground. I don't remember ever seeing her on the Ark, so I wasn't sure if we were ever going to be introduced to his parents. I am not mad about it at all though, I love Monty and I'm so happy he's getting more love this season. It really was a special moment between him and his mother.


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K - It was nice to see how genuinely happy everyone was to find more survivors from the Ark. Now that they've had time to search for more of their people, it was nice to see them finally feel like they accomplished something great by finding them. I don't think it's going to go as smoothly as we all would hope it would though. We have to remember that these people have been living on their own settlement with their own rules, and now it'll be interesting to see how they get along with everyone else back at Arcadia. We can already see how they look to Pike as their leader, and I don't trust him yet.

M - It caught my attention when Pike said their Grounder killers one and all of them, with a sort of pride like celebration of the statement. You can see that Pike has a dark, dangerous hate for the Grounders, which will not lead to good things! He holds all the Grounders responsible for what happened, no matter what Clan their from or if they were involved or not. You can't blame everyone for the things done by different people that you see as the same.


M - Clarke now captive of Roan of the Ice Nation, as they travel Clarke tricks him and attacks him. She holds him under water and as he goes limp she lets go, that's when he retaliates after using her own trick against her. Now Roan has Clarke under the water, this being symbolic as we see Clarke's disguise wash away in the water. It signifies Clarke being dragged back to her true self, pushing out from hiding, and forcing her to face herself.

K - I loved this scene for many reasons. I felt like we finally saw Clarke for the first time in a long time. There was a moment where she was vulnerable and the weight of everything just looks so real on her face, and it helps us understand why she walked away in the first place.


K - Back in Arcadia, we find Octavia and Lincoln sharing a sweet Linctavia moment.. Until someone appears coming towards their camp.

M - Nyko appears, wounded and asking for the Sky People's help. This is important and a big development for a Grounder to ask for their help. It shows promise that maybe they can change. Ice Nation having attacked Nyko, seem to be going rogue and going against everyone. We'd thought we'd seen the Grounders at their worst but it seems they're even more ruthless than the Grounders we already know. The only way to save Nyko is to go back to Mount Weather, which could have dire consequences and cause further riffs between the Grounders and the Sky People. The decision now lies on their shoulders as they decide whether he lives or dies.

K - I don't know how I feel about Abby this season yet. I feel for her because I know how much pain she's in because of Clarke, and I can see how strong she's trying to be while keeping herself busy. Jackson drops some truth bombs on her though, telling her that maybe she should stick to just being a doctor.. and maybe he's right?

Jasper is still breaking my heart this season. I'm both intrigued and scared to see where his heartbreak will lead him this season. I don't know if I can take it if he ends up like Finn when he completely broke. How about that line where Abby told him not to end up like his friend, and then Jasper replies "you're daughter killed him, too" - Ouch!

M - Jasper, my poor Jasper, is suffering and struggling. Abby tells him that not facing his feelings and keeping them inside will destroy him. Now he must make that choice as he faces returning back to Mount Weather.


M - Roan and Clarke run into some Ice Nation scouts, oddly he hides from them. Long story short, they find out he has Wanheda and they want her. It would seem that they're at odds with each other, so another action-packed fight breaks out. Roan takes them out as Clarke tries to get away, sadly not succeeding, but even after everything she's been through Clarke isn't giving up and still keeps fighting.

It's not a good sign when people of the same Clan have their weapons drawn, wary of their own people and willing to kill each other. We have only just really met the Ice Nation and from what we've already seen this is bad, very bad. Who knows what will happen.

When they catch up to Roan and Clarke, Bellamy is the first to see Clarke, after three months he runs for her but Pike stops him to his dismay, and to the dismay of Bellarke fans. He would have been seen, seen by the Ice Nation army marching by with their war drums sounding loudly. They must stop the Ice Nation from getting Clarke or they will start a war. Six people up against an army to stop a war from beginning, their choices and decisions could decide everyone's fate and future.

K - Did anyone else's heart break when Bellamy's first instinct was to run to Clarke? I felt like I was Bellamy in that moment, and not just because I'm a Bellarke fan. My boyfriend pointed out to me that Bellamy feels guilty for letting Clarke go off when he should've been trying to keep her at Arcadia and safe. That's how I felt when I saw Bellamy trying to run to Clarke, it was like he felt like he could finally save her like he wish he could've three months ago.

M - They hide in a nearby cave. I 100% expected something bad to happen while they were in there, it was a perfect set up. I was surprised when nothing did. Instead Monty needing to know what happened to his father we learn of what happened to the other survivors of the Ark. It's a heartbreaking moment as we hear that Monty's father gave his life to save some children.


M - Thelonious continues on his mission with Murphy, Emori, and some others tagging along. Emori tries to double cross them and steal the technology. Obviously it doesn't turn out well as Emori almost gets herself killed as Murphy steps in as the hero to save her. Though they do succeed in stealing the item, which turns out to be a portable holographic system that Thelonious could use to bring A.L.L.I.E along. They come after them and a man holds a knife to Emori's throat, putting Thelonious and Murphy in a stand off but Murphy out smarts him as he again saves Emori's life.

K - After this, I don't think I trust Emori. I mean I don't trust Murphy either, but I feel like out of all these people surrounding him and Jaha - he is the only sane person. That is probably a sign that something bad is going to happen in the future.. Also, what is this City of Light they are at?! Is it real? Is it in Jaha's mind? What is going on? I'm so confused!

M - Back in Mount Weather they decide to use Mount Weather as a medical facility not just for their people but for everyone. It's a powerful scene when Abby, Lincoln, Octavia, Jackson, and Grounder Nyko decide to make a stand for hope, and for change.

K - We find Jasper completely losing it and destroying all of this art that he probably shouldn't be even touching. My heart broke in that scene between him and Octavia. We finally see that moment from the season 3 trailer, and she tells him that "it'll get better" and he replies with, "when" - cue the tears!

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M - Back in the cave the others realize that Bellamy is gone. Desperate and being run by his heart, Bellamy has taken off with Grounder gear and has gone undercover. What he did just wasn't irrational and foolish but incredibly courageous. There are no words to describe what he did. Bellamy went running straight into the enemy, surrounded by hundreds if not thousands of people who could kill him. I could literally feel his fear.. or was it my fear for him..

K - Bellamy! There is not a character in this world who I love more than Bellamy! In that moment of him in the middle of the Ice Nation Grounders was so powerful, and his true character was shining through. Bellamy has transformed into a leader who will do absolutely anything to keep his people, especially the original 100, safe. In that moment we saw the love he has as a leader, and the love he has for Clarke.


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M - Bellamy finds Clarke in a dark room. Now it's obvious if someone took her and she's tied up that someone must be guarding her, unseen in the shadows.
Bellamy makes the mistake, clouded by his emotions, and just runs straight to her. Lo and behold he is attacked and both Clarke and I were begging Roan not to kill him. Roan spares Bellamy but stabs his leg with a knife to stop him from following them.
Bellamy injured, he still relentlessly tries to get Clarke back, but breaks after realizing there's nothing he can do.

K - I felt so many emotions during that Bellarke reunion! In all reality.. It's only been 2 episodes since they've been apart but it feels a lot longer, am I right? I thought that was a very powerful moment, not only as a Bellarke fan, but a fan of the show because these two characters have grown to rely on each other as more than just leaders and we could clearly see that as Roan held that knife above Bellamy.

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M - Roan didn't take Clarke straight to his Queen and avoided his own people, I knew immediately he wasn't taking Clarke to the Ice Nation but to Lexa. Getting someone to get Clarke before anyone bad could is something Lexa would do. It's her way of stopping Clarke from getting hurt, which is ironic since she's the one who hurt her. They throw in a giant shock when they reveal Roan is the Prince of Ice Nation, son of the Queen.

K - I was not expecting anything that came at the end! I probably should've seen Lexa interfering because it is something she would do. I don't think it crossed my mind though since Indra was clearly trying to help Kane and them find Clarke, so I'm still curious about that.

M - Undoubtedly Clarke loses it at Lexa. I had a feeling we would see this. Clarke seeing Lexa again, throwing her back to everything that happened. It may cause her to begin to unravel. It's like it pushed her to the edge of a cliff and soon she may lose her balance, can Clarke hang on, or will she fall?

K - I loved that scene between Clarke and Lexa. Clarke is still mad and upset about what Lexa did, and I don't think she should be forgiven easily not when we see how much everything that happened at Mount Weather hurt Clarke. That ending scene was awesome, Clarke is such a bad ass and I love her for it.


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M - I loved the episode, except for one thing.. Where the hell was Raven? I can't wait for next week!

K - I missed Raven this episode, too! I can't wait for next week either, it's going to be good. Lexa is definitely going to bring out the more angrier side of Clarke and I can't wait to see it. I think Lexa can be forgiven, but until then I can't wait to see how the aftermath of what Lexa did plays out. Also, will the Sky People find Clarke again? Or will Lexa let her go back? We shall see..


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TRUTHWITCH

Simply Nicollette reviews - books, movies, television shows, etc. with slight spoilers. I try my best to review without giving away too much of the story.


Uppercase delivered the best book mail this month!
January's book was Truthwitch by Susan Dennard. I was so excited to read this one because it was one of my most anticipated reads for this year! It did not fail to amaze me, I really enjoyed this book. Truthwitch found a brilliant way to bring life to these amazing magical characters set in a very intriguing world!



Goodreads Summary // On a continent ruled by three empires, some are born with a "witchery", a magical skill that sets them apart from others. In the Witchlands, there are almost as many types of magic as there are ways to get in trouble - as two desperate young women know all too well.

Safiya is a Truthwitch, able to discern truth from lie. It's a powerful magic that many would kill to have on their side, especially amongst the nobility to which Safi was born. So Safi must keep her gift hidden, lest she be used as a pawn in the struggle between empires. Iseult, a Threadwitch, can see the invisible ties that bind and entangle the lives around her - but she cannot see the bonds that touch her own heart. Her unlikely friendship with Safi has taken her from life as an outcast into one of reckless adventure, where she is a cool, wary balance to Safi's hotheaded impulsiveness.

Safi and Iseult just want to be free to live their own lives, but war is coming to the Witchlands. With the help of the cunning Prince Merik (a Windwitch and ship's captain) and the hindrance of a Bloodwitch bent on revenge, the friends must fight emperors, princes, and mercenaries alike, who stop at nothing to get their hands on a Truthwitch.


"When the chimes toll midnight, you can do whatever you please and live out the same unambitious existence you've always enjoyed."


In all honesty, Truthwitch started off a bit rough for me. We find our heroines of the story, Safiya and Iseult, completely losing all of their earnings thanks to Safi betting all of it on one card game. The action took a backseat to all of the information that was being thrown at us. I found myself learning about all these different types of witches, lots of things about Threads, and feeling very little actual world building. I felt confused and bored. I didn't know what was important to remember, and I wasn't sure why I needed to know all of this right now.

The story starts to pick up though, after Safi and Iseult begin their plan to run away from Venaza City to escape the Bloodwitch that is hunting them down. This Bloodwitch is from what they explain as the Void, and is meant to be evil - a demon. Let me tell you my thoughts on this Bloodwitch though, who's name is Aeduan, because I absolutely love him. There is something about him that makes you believe that this guy isn't pure evil.


"Aeduan didn't know to whom he owed his loyalty - his vows or his family - yet he was at least certain of one thing: he was grateful the Well had saved Monk Evrane."


Everything about Aeduan continued to surprise me! He has so many layers to him that I constantly found myself asking - is he evil? Is he good? I don't know, but I'm a sucker for characters who have a justified past that has turned them into who they are now, but still have a good heart somewhere in them to hopefully be redeemed.


After Dennard gets most of the terms out of the way, that is when the story really begins. It's not that I didn't appreciate learning about all the different witches and how their magic works, I just felt like I didn't need to know it all at the beginning. It would've worked better for me if the terminology was spread out throughout the book when necessary.

There is a lot that happens after Safi and Iseult begin their escape from the Bloodwitch - so much, that I won't talk about it all because of spoilers and it's a lot of fun to read the twists as they come!

I easily fell in love with both Safi and Iseult, who are strong heroines on their own and even stronger together. Safi is reckless and Iseult likes to strategize. They are both determined, loyal, and lethal. They were the perfect pair for an epic team throughout the whole story, even though they both had separate plot points that made them interesting alone. Every character in the story seemed to have their own plot points, yet they all intertwined nicely to bring the story full circle.


All of the characters, even the supporting characters, progress the story along. We are soon introduced to Prince Merik who is absolutely swoon-worthy. He was just a good person who would do absolutely anything to help his people. The thing I liked best about his plot intertwining with Safi's was the fact that their romance never took over the story. A lot of people seem to not like their 'insta-love' connection, but I honestly didn't mind it in Truthwitch because they were purely attracted to one another at first, and then it grew to more.. Isn't that how it works out sometimes?


"The Threads over Safi's - and Merik's heads - throbbed with a harsh, urgent need. Safi's Threads grabbed for Merik's, and his wrapped and twined into hers."


"A storm's coming, Saf, and you're at its eye. I can be the right hand and you can be the left."


The story comes to an epic ending, and I couldn't stop turning the pages! Susan Dennard is a brilliant writer, and I really enjoyed her style. Truthwitch had a lot of qualities that I've seen in other fantasy reads yet it still had a unique layer to it. Even though the beginning was a bit rough for me, I thought she wrote great dialogue and descriptions to help build this fun world. The story ended with a lot of hope for a strong sequel. I can already tell this is going to be a great series, and I can't wait to read all of it!


"I'll always follow you, Safi, and you'll always follow me. Threadsisters to the end."


The strongest element to this story was the bond between Safi and Iseult. Honestly I don't see enough girls fighting together in YA books. Their friendship was beautiful, and I loved how they would do absolutely everything in their power to keep one another alive. They put each other first, just like real sisters, and I loved them for it.

Overall, I really enjoyed this book. After you get pass the first couple of chapters this story is completely worth reading. I loved this world and the characters inside of it. It had all of my favorite elements of a great fantasy read, and it definitely lived up to the hype for me. I would recommend this book to anyone who enjoys fantasy stories, or is looking for a fun adventure!


"She had a prize now. She ran for Nubrevna. She ran for Merik. She ran for Iseult. She ran for Kullen and Ryber and Mathew and Habim, and above all, she ran for herself."



RATING:

4 out of 5 stars


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THIS MOMENT

This Moment is a weekly ritual of a single photo - no words - capturing a special moment from the week. These photos represent a moment that is dear to my heart, whether it be of someone or something I love.





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GOODREADS REVIEW // NOVEMBER 9

Simply Nicollette reviews - books, movies, television shows, etc. with slight spoilers. I try my best to review without giving away too much of the story.


November 9 by Colleen Hoover
My rating: 4 of 5 stars
















There were many emotions that I felt while reading November 9. It was incredibly honest, funny, sexy, and even heartbreaking at times. I loved all of it!


"Loving someone doesn't just include that person, Ben. Loving someone means accepting all the things and people that person loves, too. And I will. I do. I promise."


This book starts off with the common 'girl meets boy and they instantly fall in love' premise that we all know so well.. I honestly wasn't sure if I was going to keep reading it. I'm not a fan of 'insta-love' but I've made exceptions in the past, so I decided to give it a chance. I'm glad that I did because after reading the entire story every interaction between them, all the way back to when they first met, made sense. So don't let that stop you from picking up this book.

As the story progresses it becomes more interesting. Our two main characters, Fallon and Ben, are having the best day together and neither of them want to say good-bye. They are both young though, and deep down they know now is not the time to fall in love. Well more like Fallon feels this way than Ben does, but that's besides the point.. They come to the decision to meet up on the same day for the next 5 years since Fallon believes that 23 is the perfect age to finally be in love.




"You'll never be able to find yourself if you're lost in someone else."


I loved everything about their arrangement. We don't see anything that goes on in their lives besides the time they spend together on November 9th of every year. Each year you can see how both of them have grown up and changed from their time apart. It was fun watching them grow up in such a unique way. I saw a lot of myself in them and that made it easy for me to fall in love with both of them.


"If you tell me you want to spend every single day on the calendar this year falling in love with me, then I'm going to kiss you. And I promise it'll be an eleven. And I'll spend every day after today proving to you that you made the right choice."


Cue the tears!! I loved their love! There were times when it felt like it was too good to be true. There was a lot of unnecessary drama between them, but I didn't mind either of these because it only made the story more interesting. Colleen Hoover made it easy to root for them.. Even if she managed to make me laugh and then just as easily tear my heart out in the next minute.


"But anyone who sees your scars before they see you doesn't deserve you. I hope you remember that and believe that. A body is simply a package for the true gifts inside. And you are full of gifts. Selfishness, kindness, compassion. All the things that matter."


Overall, I loved this book. I saw everything that I believe love is through these pages - how it's being happy together, being able to cry together, and even get mad at each other. I'm so happy November 9 was able to remind me of all the reasons why I love love so much. I would recommend this book to anyone who enjoys romance novels or contemporaries in general!




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THE 100 // SEASON 3 "WANHEDA: PART ONE" RECAP

Simply Nicollette's recap posts for The 100 will contain spoilers.



The wait is finally over!
Season 3 of The 100 has begun! Maddi and I are excited to be sharing our thoughts about each episode throughout the entire season with you. Now - let's talk about the first episode!



Wanheda: Part One Synopsis:

"Three months have passed since the tragedy at Mount Weather and our heroes learn that a bounty has been put on Clarke's head. Unbeknownst to Clarke, a team led by Bellamy and Kane journeys deep into Grounder territory to save her. Meanwhile, Murphy finds his way to the mansion and discovers a very different Jaha on a very different mission."





Maddi - After a long wait The 100 finally returns with its season 3 premiere episode, titled "Wanheda: Part One."


M - It has been 3 months since the aftermath of the events at Mount Weather. The 100 cleverly shows the passage of time by beginning the premiere with Murphy's spiraling descent into madness, after finding himself trapped in the bunker he came across near the end of last season.

Kristy - I loved the opening scene. I think Murphy has come a long way since the first season, and honestly he's that character we all love to hate because he makes the show that much more interesting.


M - We see that the Sky People have established a way of life for themselves with order, vegetation, amped up security, and a thriving community. But things are as hostile as ever. It's like their world is balancing on an edge and with one wrong move it will fall to ruins.
They've been mapping the locations, lands, and borders of the 12 Clans. They made a point of staying away from Azgeda (a.k.a Ice Nation), who seem to be doing their own thing as everyone else is under a cease-fire.

K - It's crazy to see how much Camp Jaha, now Arcadia, has grown in just 3 months. Everyone seems to be finding their place in this new life of theirs, and are trying to work together to make their lives better. Everything that happened at Mount Weather changed every single person on the ground. My heart is breaking for Raven, Jasper is barely holding it together, and Bellamy took the leadership role like a champ now that Clarke is gone.

M - I'm guessing they got the Jeep from Mount Weather which Bellamy, Raven, Jasper, Monty, and Miller use when they leave to explore Sector 7, with Octavia following along on horseback.
As they ride along in the Jeep, Jasper puts on some music, which turns into a singing session/party. This was my favorite scene of the episode. It was exhilarating blasting the music, forgetting everything, forgetting your worries, and just having fun. It was a very meaningful moment because it's a rare thing for them, after everything they've been through, they deserve happiness even if it's only for a few minutes.

K - I loved this scene, too! I just really wanted Jasper to smile again, and it was nice to see him get out of his head even if it was just for a little bit.


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M - But it doesn't last long before things get real again when a beacon from the Ark goes off. Remember last season they couldn't go look for the rest of the Ark with the war going on, well now we know where part of the ship is. The one problem is it's in Sector 8, also known as Azgeda. (Of course it's the area they're trying to avoid.)

Making the choice we all know they're going to make, they go after the beacon in hopes of finding their people. They arrive but nothing is there but a group of Azgeda Grounders on horses. (Who don't look very friendly.)
They say they are looking for Wanheda but before we can get any answers Jasper, in his bad emotional state, makes a bad decision and goes for the beacon, causing a Grounder to go for him and put a knife to his throat. Giving his friends no choice but to shoot and kill the Grounders in order to save his life.

K - Nothing stays good for too long on this show, so I knew something was going to happen once I started feeling happy. The Azgeda Grounders do not look like nice people at all, they are completely different than the Grounders we've grown to know in the past 2 seasons. I'm a little worried about the pain that they are going to cause the Sky People this season.
Not only was I already a little freaked out over these new Grounders, Jasper is such a loose cannon right now that I wasn't sure what he was going to do when he walked up to the Grounder to take back the beacon. He genuinely seemed pleased to have his life put to risk.


M - Before they can process and deal with what happened they get a radio call from Kane in Sector 4. The group takes Jasper on horseback back to the base for medical treatment, as Bellamy and Monty take the Jeep to meet Kane, who surprisingly is with Indra.

K - I have to say that I am really loving how everyone seems to be working as a team. I like seeing this leadership role that Bellamy has been put in by Kane and Abby.

M - Indra warns them "Clarke is being hunted.. by everyone" and that Clarke is a symbol. The Grounders believe that when you kill someone you get their power. After what Clarke did at Mount Weather they believe she is incredibly strong with power, so strong that they're calling her Wanheda, which means "Commander of Death." The Ice Nation's Queen wants Clarke's power, if her people believe she has it she'll break the coalition to start a war.

As Bellamy, Monty, Kane, and Indra go searching for Clarke, Lincoln seems lost as he battles with where he belongs. Though he's been accepted by the Sky People, he's been disowned and labeled a traitor by his own people. All he wants is peace and co-existence for everyone.

K - Lincoln has to be one of the most interesting characters on the show. He represents hope to me. Hope that the Grounders and Sky People can have peace. Hope that people can be accepted no matter where they've come from. It's hard to see him struggling with where he belongs because he's just trying to bring peace between everyone.


M - We really see just how broken and self-destructive Jasper has become and The 100 are doing an amazing job of showing a character utterly transforming from what we once knew them to be.

K - It hurts to see how much pain Jasper is in, and how he doesn't trust Monty anymore because he knows that he helped Clarke in Mount Weather. I really don't know how he's ever going to be able to forgive them, but I hope that he finds a way.

M - Raven is in a bad place. She seems defeated as she deals with her leg getting worse. Raven also says some harsh but truthful words to Abby, leading them to later share a moment that really shows just how far back their connection on the show goes.

K - Abby and Raven's conversations break me with how truthful they are to one another. I think Raven sees Abby as more of a mother figure than she leads on, and Abby wants to be there for Raven especially since she feels like she can't be there for Clarke.


M - I get a very bad feeling from Thelonious and artificial intelligence A.L.I.E. I fear what they will do or what they may bring will not be good at all.

K - I'm interested to see how Jaha and Murphy's storyline will play into everything that is going on with the Sky People and the Grounders.

M - Shawn Mendes' character to me felt uncomfortable and odd being there, but as he sings while playing the piano, it becomes a wonderful scene. It felt like their bond as people was beginning to heal and reconnect them after everything they have been through. They still have a part of their history and culture that can't be taken away or destroyed, something as simple yet wondrous as music.

K - I agree with Maddi, I loved that scene where he began to sing and everyone was in that same room. It shows how much these people are trying to make a life even though circumstances have made it hard for them to do so.


M - Clarke's holding it together better than I thought we would see, she is indeed strong and not just in strength, but also in character. But I think some of it is a facade and it will soon fall. I think we'll soon see just how much she really is struggling with the scars the events at Mount Weather left behind on her. She will need to accept help to survive this.

K - Clarke is one of the strongest heroines on TV right now. I completely agree that her true emotions will start shining through eventually, and I think she's going to break at some point during this season. It's hard to remember but these are still young adults and even though they are more mature because of their circumstances, they still have many flaws including Clarke.


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M - The episode comes to an end as Bellamy, Monty, Kane, and Indra end up in a dangerous situation while searching for Clarke. Meanwhile an Ice Nation Grounder appears out of the shadows, grabbing Clarke from behind, threatening her with a knife to her throat and taking her.

K - The 100 always ends with a bang! Overall, I thought this was a strong season 3 premiere. It set up great future plots that are sure to be explored more throughout the season. I'm enjoying all the new characters, seeing our old ones continue to develop, and experiencing more of this world.


Wanheda: Part Two Promo:




You can watch season 1 and 2 of The 100 on Netflix now! Remember to tune in every Thursday at 9/8c to watch The 100 live on The CW.
Join us the following day as we recap episode two. We can't wait to discuss all things The 100 with you!




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PROVING MYSELF



The other morning I was at the dentist office with my daughter, and I was feeling blessed in that moment because I wasn't stressed or worried like I once would've been during appointments like these. A young mother walked in along with her son and her own mother. After being told that her insurance expired, I saw how she instantly became lost and stressed by turning to her mother for advice on the situation. In that moment all I wanted was to pull her aside and tell her that it will get better.. It will get easier.

I'm a young mother.
I had my oldest daughter when I was 19 years old - right after high school. I had no idea how to be a parent because I never thought that kids would be in my future. That's the thing about becoming a parent so young, you never expect it to be you. You never expect to be the one who gets pregnant after high school and staring parenthood straight in the face. It happened to me though, and no I wouldn't change a thing about my life, but there are a lot of things I wish I could go back and tell my younger self.

I had a lot of challenges to face within myself as a young mother.
The big challenge I faced every day was how to look like I had my life together. How to come off as a perfect parent. I was consumed by this perfect picture in my head of how the perfect parent was supposed to look. Do you see what my problem was? I was trying too hard to look like the perfect parent, and I wasn't trying hard enough to actually be the perfect parent.
Now, I don't think that I was a bad parent in the beginning but I don't think I was ever present with my children. I was miserable constantly taking pictures just to gain approval of a life I never felt like I was living - it was just passing by.

I was being unfair to my children, I know that now.
I was selfish then.
At the time - proving myself to the people around me was the thing that stayed constant in my life. From learning how to take care of myself to learning how to take care of 2 people - the only thing that didn't change was my self-esteem, and how I needed approval from others to validate my life. You know how crazy that sounds? Super crazy. We don't need approval from others to validate our own lives. It took me awhile to see this, but there was a point where I saw that everyone was going on with their own lives without seeing me at all. No one was ever paying attention to how I was becoming a parent when they were busy trying to grow up, too.

There are times where I still feel like I'm trying to prove myself.
I find myself wanting to be friends with the parents at my children's school, so naturally I think that they won't like me if I'm not coming off as a good parent.. but as soon as I see myself being distant from the parent I've grown to be, I just stop trying to prove to be someone I'm not.
I'm not a bad parent.
I'm not the perfect parent either.
I'm the type of parent who just gives it their all every day and hopes that's enough.

So, if I could've reached out to that young mom the other day I would've told her how I've been there. I've been lost, scared, and stressed. I've been the parent who turns to her older relatives for constant help. I've been the parent trying to give the best to my children, but not knowing exactly how to do it. We all make mistakes. Our mistakes help us grow into a better person, and they especially help us grow into a more understanding parent. It'll get easier. You'll find your way by learning from this moment. There will be more moments like this one, too.. and it'll be okay.

I don't think it matters how old we are.
We all face challenges within ourselves as parents, especially when there are a million people telling us how to parent. It's important to know that it's okay to make mistakes, or not try everything you see on Pinterest. As long as your present and doing the best you can for your children then I think you're doing just fine.

Don't try to prove yourself to others.
Just do good for you.
Be better for your children.


xxo


THIS MOMENT

This Moment is a weekly ritual of a single photo - no words - capturing a special moment from the week. These photos represent a moment that is dear to my heart, whether it be of someone or something I love.




xxo



GOODREADS REVIEW // BOOKISHLY EVER AFTER

Simply Nicollette reviews - books, movies, television shows, etc. with slight spoilers. I try my best to review without giving away too much of the story.


Bookishly Ever After by Isabel Bandeira
My rating: 4 of 5 stars
















Bookishly Ever After is adorable in every way, and it truly captures all the feelings of falling in love for the very first time!

I really enjoyed this story. It reminded me of Fangirl with all of the book references throughout the book, but it stood out on it's own in my mind. Phoebe was a true book lover, and it was hard not to like her. She's a complete bookworm, and she represented that from her forever growing TBR pile and how she can read a book multiple times and still love it. Like many book lovers she has multiple book boyfriends (who doesn't?), but after her best friend alerts her of a new crush she starts to realize that maybe real love is better.

I was rooting for Phoebe to fall in love from the very first moment Dev was introduced! This story is full of fun and diverse characters, and I love how Dev was a swoon-worthy guy who didn't fit the description of many other books. Phoebe and Dev are awkward but adorable at the same time. It was hard for me not to remember how sweet and innocent a first love truly is, and this book was able to capture all of those nervous and weird feelings we all have felt when you interacted with a first crush.




There were many excerpts from the books that Phoebe was reading, particularly to help her "to get the guy" - and I loved this. Isabel Bandeira's writing is great, I loved how she was able to capture so much through this story. Phoebe develops into her own person outside of the books she reads, but what I enjoyed most was seeing how she was a part of all of the characters she loved. I've always thought that we learn and grow from the books we read, but in the end it's who we are as an individual, mixed in with all of the things we learn from the books we read that make us great people on our own. I appreciate how Bandeira was able to send that message through this book.

Overall, I really enjoyed this story. It was fun, cute, and held the perfect ingredients of capturing a first love! If you are a book lover then you will appreciate how real Phoebe is, even how she would rather dress up as her favorite book heroine than anything else. I would recommend this book to anyone who enjoys contemporaries!




xxo


THIS MOMENT

This Moment is a weekly ritual of a single photo - no words - capturing a special moment from the week. These photos represent a moment that is dear to my heart, whether it be of someone or something I love.




xxo


GOODREADS REVIEW // WOLF BY WOLF

Simply Nicollette reviews - books, movies, television shows, etc. with slight spoilers. I try my best to review without giving away too much of the story.


Wolf By Wolf by Ryan Graudin
My rating: 5 of 5 stars
















Wolf by Wolf is such a unique story, and I'm really glad I began my 2016 with this brilliant read!

I absolutely loved this story. I've set myself a goal of reading more historical fiction this year, and I'm glad I began with this book. It's usually hard for me to read historical fiction just because I find it hard to separate actual history with what's going on in the book, but Ryan Graudin set up this alternate universe in a way where it was easy to understand the difference. I understood how this was something that wasn't real, yet could've easily been real in some ways. I enjoyed every aspect of this story, there was even a fantasy element throughout the story as well.

This time in history can be a bit hard for some people to go back and think about, but I loved the message this story made. Just like Graudin stated in her author's note, I appreciated that this book was able to show readers how easy we judge ourselves and the people around us based on looks, facts that are easy to look up about each other, and many other things.. but we are all so much more than what can only be seen through the outside.

All of the characters are strong and each are unique in their own way. Yael is amazing - she is the character I wish was in more YA books. She is a damaged soul thanks to her past, and every move she makes down to her personality is everything you would expect in someone who has been through the things that she has. Everything about her made sense - even how she felt when she had to build actual relationships with people she never thought she'd have to. She developed from a girl who didn't really know who she was into a girl who finally started to see herself outside of the many faces she took, because in the end it's what was in her heart that made her who she is.



"I decided I couldn't be afraid of my own life. My own reflection. So every morning I make myself look in a mirror for five minutes. Face it all."
Yael looked down at her lap, her trembling arm. "So I'm just supposed to make things better by staring?"
"Better?" Vlad choked on the word. "It never gets better. It just gets less. It becomes something you can face. If only for five minutes."



Overall, I really loved this book. I can't say in enough words how many feelings I had while reading. It made me appreciate the way I live my life now. It helped me to see myself in a different light, and learn more about myself and others around me. The writing was brilliant, and the world was set up great. I felt like I was on the motorcycle with Yael the whole time!




I can't wait for the sequel - the twist at the end of this book was so mind blowing that I honestly have no idea where this series is going to take us, but I'm really excited to find out!

I would recommend this book to anyone who wants to try reading more historical fiction stories (like me), or enjoys them already! It's a good one guys.




xxo


HELLO 2016



Goodbye 2015.
Hello 2016.

If I could only pick one thing that I truly learned from this past year, it would be how I was finally able to be myself for once in my life.
For as long as I can remember, even back in elementary school, all I ever did was try to please others around me. Besides wanting to make the people around me happy, all I wanted was to fit in with people who I thought were good for me. Then as I became an adult - I spent the first half of my twenties completely broken because I hated who I had become. I felt like I wasted my life on people who were no longer even in my life. I felt like I could never escape the pain from my past mistakes. I felt lost. I allowed all of this to define who I was as a person, and to be honest it wasn't a good person.

It was like a light switch went off as soon as I turned 25 last year.
Honestly, I was just tired of being who I was and hating myself had become exhausting.
It was time for me to stop allowing my past and those mistakes to define me.
The journey to the person I am now and who I was a year ago was far from easy. It took a lot of time and a lot of forgiveness all on my part. I had no idea how to forgive myself. All I knew was that I couldn't keep living as that kind of person - the one ashamed to step outside, the one who was always angry, and the one who was anything but herself.

I finally realized that all the mistakes that I had made in my past weren't who I was as a person.
I've talked about this a lot on Simply Nicollette, but as I said this is the most important lesson I learned this past year and I'm very thankful for it. I don't know how much longer I could've led that type of life for myself or for my family.

As I reintroduced myself to well.. myself, I also introduced the true me to the world.
I really like me.
I love the feeling of finally being able to be who I am and not be afraid of being that person.
I have scars, I'm a little crazy, my anxiety makes me incredibly shy, plus many more flaws - but I'm finally happy with all of them. I've lost people in my life, but this past year I also gained stronger friendships and relationships. I'd rather have real best friends and a strong family than be surrounded by people who don't love me for who I truly am. Who wouldn't? It's incredibly freeing.

Being who you truly are can be a bit scary. I was scared to be alone - that no one would accept me.. but I hope you see from my story that that is far from the truth. The people who actually see you will love you and still be there, and the ones who never saw you at all don't matter anyways.
It's okay to be who we really are.
It's okay to stop letting those mistakes define us as a person.
It's okay to move on and let go of the pain, the grudges, and forgive ourselves.
It's okay to learn how to live a better life, no matter how old we are or what we've been through.
What's in our hearts is the true thing that matters.

So, thank you 2015 for the fantastic year with a family who loves me and friends who care about me. Thank you for allowing me to find myself again, and letting that good person become a better mother, girlfriend, friend, and family member.
Here's to 2016 and the many lessons ahead of me.


xxo