I've been trying to find the right words, the right topic, the right way to come back to this special place of mine.
Months have passed since I last wrote anything down.
It's been a long time since I sat down to really think - to unplug from the world for just a bit and process my life into words.
I don't know where to start - so I'm just going to start off by saying that so much has changed since I last wrote anything down.. & I mean SO much.
When I started this journey my goal was to turn my life around and truly find myself again - here's a hint - that hasn't happened yet. The truth is that I've been running and I haven't stopped running since that first post here on 'Simply Nicollette'. I've been running away from all my problems and I've been hiding for a long time.. but I'm tired. I'm so tired of running.
I don't know why I am so afraid of dealing with my emotions, but I am.
I'm afraid of the downward spiral it could lead me on.
I get anxiety just thinking about facing my problems.
It's not healthy.
This year has been tough - emotionally and physically.
I feel like I have more problems that I even care to face and fix.
.. but I need to stop running.
Right now - I need to stop hiding.
It's time for me to open up the closet door and lay all my problems out on the floor and deal with them. It's time for me to find my way back to the light at the end of the tunnel.
It's time for me to free my heart and my mind from all the anxiety I hold on to.
I can't run and hide anymore.
It's time for me to find my way back.
I hope you continue to join me on my journey.
I hope that you don't give up on me as easily as I gave up on myself.
I hope you join me to break free and find your own way back.
Let's do this together.